Night Day 1

The rest of the day went pretty well. Drank plenty more water and kept my eating in check. Salad with Chicken and Cottage cheese for dinner and Popcorn and apples for an evening snack. All in all a decent day. probably somewhere around 1000 to 1200 calories for the day. Tomorrow I plan to wake up early and be ready to go.

Checking in Day 1

Worked this am. Had one coffee and a protein bar. Worked out and so far drinking lots of water. It feels good to work up a real good sweat. And I always wonder why it is so hard to make it to the gym, because once I am finally there I love it. Hoping the rest of the day I can keep my calories in check and wake up early tomorrow for workout Day 2 and yoga in the afternoon.

setting goals.

3 week personal challenge..
diet and exercise daily...
no excuses...

Monday Oct. 25th goal. Run at least 2 miles. Eat right & drink 10 glasses of water.
Tuesday Oct. 26th goal. Run at lest 1 mile + yoga class. Eat right & drink 10 glasses of water.
Wednesday Oct. 27th goal. Run at least 3 miles. Eat right & drink 10 glasses of water.
Thursday Oct. 28th goal. Run at least 1 mile + yoga class. Eat right & drink 10 glasses of water.
Friday Oct. 29th goal. Run at least 3 miles. Eat right & drink 10 glasses of water.

Saturday weigh in. Run 2-3 miles and drink plenty of water. Weigh in reward of loss, movie night.

Sunday Go to church and take a nice walk (Trick or treating for Cameron) No junk food.

Desperate to change

Early childhood brings back a lot of memories for me, mostly good. Unfortunately I grew up with some terrible memories that developed my fears that I continue to fight today. Comparisons. Great for market research, not so great for children. I remember being in dance class every week and feeling disgusted, most likely because I was a tad heavier than the other kids and weight was a highly talked about subject in the household. Second helpings of dinner before the dreaded dance class (or more realistically the dreaded huge mirrors) could not have helped, but food was my comfort. It was always there and always calmed me. Don't misunderstand me here, I wasn't a fat kid, but I wasn't petite either. Constant negative thoughts about myself lingered in my head, if someone said I was pretty I didn't believe them.

I am beginning this blog to talk about some of the very unhealthy feelings I have had about myself over the span of my life and how I am attempting to break them now. I get online for various other reasons and if I can check my e-mail I can definitely post a blog. Usually I get distracted from my goals and don't follow through. This is do or die time. I am desperate to change.

Todays weight- high
Todays mood- low
Activity level- low (some yoga)
Daily reading- check
Affirmations- check

Forecast for tomorrow
weight dropping
mood expected to be higher
Activity level-moderate to high